I lost my parents too Michael. About 6 months ago in an accident. I was in the accident and we were on our way for a camping trip. My Dad was a pilot and wasnt around much, and we saw this day as a catch up. I was looking forward to it , but it ended my parents lives that day. I still cry now and then, but now that i have no one, i HAVE to stay strong, and thats what we can do together. I've got friends, well 1 friend and shes my everything. I live with them, i moved out of my family home 1 week ago. I believe you can still become the best of your ability and in your case, a surgeon. Please dont give up on your dream. Going to school can help you achieve so much Michael, and im here for you. God is always here, and he will find away for you. And so will the people that wanna help you. Like me. Stick to what you think is right. And maybe, we can talk.