Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.Its hard to answer the question whats wrong when nothings right.Im tired of trying, sick of crying, I know Ive been smiling, but inside I'm dying.Maybe one day it will be ok again. Thats all I want. I dont care what it takes. I just want to be ok again.When I was younger crying always seemed to be the answer. Now that I'm older crying seems to be the only option.I guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying because it hurts to much to hold on anymore.You say I'm always happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but what youll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress too.Just because I'm smiling doesnt mean I'm happy.Just when I thought my life was coming together, I realized it was just starting to fall apart.Stop the world I wanna get off. I bleed for you thats why I cut those simple scars are just deep thoughts.You bleed just to know your alive.It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.Refuse to feel anything at all, refuse to slip, refuse to fall, cant be weak, cant stand still, watch your back because no one else will.Theres no excuse for the need to take your own life away, everyone passes through some rough obstacles if life, just face them as they come along, theres always a way to overcome those obstacles, and learn from your experiences.If you cant solve it, it isnt a problem its reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face youll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.Its funny the way you can get use to the tears and the pain.What do you do when you become too scared, too scared to live, too scared to die, too scared to love, too scared to even care? Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just cant because things have changed so much.