Everybody hurts, you're not alone.
When we experience times of difficulty and stress sometimes when no one is around to experience our pain with us, and even sometimes when others are there for us we still feel alone. I know that going through pain and grief is a hard thing to do, and it is especially hard to do by yourself. But unless you reach out to those close to you to let them know that you want them close to you in your grief, usually people will back off and let you grieve alone. Dont be ashamed to ask for love, especially from the ones that you know will offer up their love to you in a heartbeat. Sometimes it is best to just tell someone how you are feeling, or maybe not even how you are feeling, but just simply that you need a hug to help you deal with the pain. Getting this love will help you heal so make sure that you reach out for it!