Think about the people who love you, how much pain your absence would cost them. Someone is looking for a chance to live and make positive changes in their life of regrets which is suddenly fading away and yet you're here with a whole life and you just wanna trash it away like that?
Please, go out there, if you can find a church go in and lay your problems, they may find a way to help you out. Go and join sports, try to do the things you love most, and you'll realize your special talents. When you find them, you'll be motivated to live and develop them to add value to other lives and those you can reach.
Remember, you can always be a blessing to people if you want by staying positive and using your talents to contribute positively to the world around you. I just hope and wish you'll understand and let go of your current thoughts. thisistherealme