My foster son killed himself, jumped off a multi-story car par park. He was only 17yrs old hun and it is a thing that you will never get over, but you can keep him alive with all the good memories you have and the good times you had together. You will be asking IF only, IF this and that and blame yourself because he/she didn't confide in you. DON'T blame yourself hun, if you need to chat with someone drop me a line, be glad to listen & help if I can. Mandi
Camilia