When I eat, I'll immedietaly stick two fingeers down my throat and throw it back up. Its automatic and I am trying to stop but it's not working. It's like a reflex because I just zone out when I do it and don't realise what I have down until it's too late. I was bullied a bit and the called me fat and ugly, so when I'm sick I feel like I'm throwing up the fat and ugly out of my body. It feels as if I'm throwing up the flaws and all the bad things on/in my body. Which I know I'm not. I'm just stupid. But I cant stop. And Ill randomly start eating like ****, anything there, ill eat it but after the food rampage ill just fell guilty and ashamed and start making myself throw it back up again. But either way I feel ashamed because there is some people in the world that have no food and I'm throwing my back up because I'm ugly?! I'm selfish and ugly and ashamed. There is probably people bigger than me who dont care about how they look and I wish I could be them, Ive tried, but failed. I'm not that type of person but I wish I was. And I keep randomly breaking down crying when I'm alone for no reason, or a stupid reason. But I thinnk its cause when I cry I get everything I want to cry about out and I wont cy infront of peopple. People wont let me not speak for two minutes without an interogation. Because I was happy loud and carefree before those guys bullied me (no one knew thye bullied me) I have to be fakehappy niw and its tiring. When my friends say 'your perfect the way you are' I dont feel complimented but lied too, and it takes everything not to scream at them for lying. I know I'm ungrateful. I know I'm selfish. I know I'm ugly and fat, but I cant stop!!!! whats wrong with me?:(

Want Wrong With Me quotes


Telisa McLaughlin

Sponsored Links
Sponsored Links
Sponsored Links
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Contact Us
Our goal is to help you by delivering amazing quotes to bring inspiration, personal growth, love and happiness to your everyday life.

© 2021 SearchQuotes™