For what it's worth, it's never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you are proud of. And if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
Each day is a new day, and with that we all have the potential to turn over a new leaf with every breath God gives us to breath. Too many of us are so beat down by life that we feel as though we will never be good enough. We get to the point where we live a life we aren't proud of, and feel as though nothing we can do will ever make our messed up life the way that we want it to be.