Now the only one who can always trust and believe in you and who can never leave you alone as long as you believe in His unstoppable love is God. Though you may not see Him you would feel Him through the blessings, love, good friends, healings and unlimited lucks he would bring upon your life.
Look for a prayerful church around you and visit. Be careful too because there are also fake churches around these days. Or you can try and go through the bible and you'll see some of the beautiful things of God.
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