First of all...you didn't want it end it all or I wouldn't see this question. your a survivor my friend
Problems! Problems! Problems! We all have them; but what causes the pain? Is it the problems that bother you? The answer is no! What causes your pain is your REACTION to the problem or problems. The pain you feel is created by you by your reaction. H.O.P.E (HOLD ON, PAIN ENDS) Change the way you look at things, and the things you look at change. God bless you!
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