This may sound strange or stupid... but I don't know who I am anymore, I'm tired of trying, Sick of crying I know, I've been smilling but inside I am dying. Maybe one day, Everything will be ok, That's all I want, I don't care what it takes, I just want to be ok again, I guess their comes to a point were you just have to stop trying because it hurts to much to hold on anymore You say I'm always happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but what you'll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress too I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheek, I ran away and hid from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back to me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that pain I felt so long ago; it's hurting ten times more.