That is because you still have feelings for him. you make a decision where in you are in Confucius
situation. it is really difficult to be remote or departed with somebody whom you really love and specially when both of you.. shared many memories together and expecting that you will be together eternally. where you made some promises each other and unfortunately its failed.
its very hard to get over with someone, when every time you always recall all your memories.
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