Nobody could feel that more than me. I was hurt the most. Nobody felt what I felt. It happened to me and it happened to me in front of the world. It was embarrassing, it was humiliating, it was hurtful it was. Its not easy. I lost my best friend. Every thing I knew switched in a night and I couldnt control that so I had to deal with that and thats not easy for me to understand or interpret. And, its not easy to interpret on camera, not with the world watching. It was hard for me to even pay attention to my mind and figuring things out because now it became a circus and I felt protective. I felt like the only person they hate right now is him. It was a weird, confusing space to be in cause as angry as I was, as angry and hurt and betrayed, I just felt like he made that mistake because he needed help and whose going to help him? Nobodys going to say hes needs helpeverybody is going to say hes a monster without looking at the source. I was more concerned about him.